I went through a series of major surgeries, one a year for five years on my gut, stomach and pancreas.
When it became clear to me that the last surgery was a failure, I painted this. I sat and cried and cried and questioned my decision on every surgery. I wondered how in the hell I could be so bad off after a promising surgery left me in such bad shape. I questioned my medical team and my decisions.
I was left with despair and depression. I was left with a mess, no one wanted to help or understand me. People made fun of me and cast me out. Even as I write this and recount the tragedy, the tears wouldn’t stop rolling down my face.
It’s a feeling of aloneness, emptiness and fear, and pain, physical pain, emotional pain, spiritual pain.
acrylic on canvas
14 inches long x 18 inches wide
This art a courtesy of PainExhibit.org, an online educational, visual arts exhibit from artists with chronic pain who use art to express some facet of the pain experience.
The Pain Exhibit’s mission is to educate healthcare providers and the public about chronic pain through art, and to give voice to the many who suffer in silence.
Pain Exhibit recently launched its new Spanish language website at PainExhibit.org/es.